Helloooooooo, it has been a whiiiiileeeeee. 2021 is coming to an end, and I'm going to be 24 next year. This is the last month being 23 like hellloooooo where do all the times go?!! I have been writing since I could remember although, ehem not very often laaa where got times ma busy busy >.< Life has been treating me good recently. Everything is going good Alhamdulillah eventhough its a lil rocky at the beginning of year, but now I could breathe a little.
Where do I start? hmm, I've graduated (yeay!) but still no convocation news yet :( some of the universities have started theirs but mine is still faaaaaar away sksksk but rumour has it that it'd prolly being held next year 2022. Let's hope its true!! I'm not cracking brain for 4 years not to have a graduation am I? Plus I never had one since I am from matriculation, so no experience being on stage receiving the scroll.. sad! Okay fast forward, completed my internship, a great but not really fruitful experience bhahaha cause I worked from home all the way throughout the 6 months so there's no really practical sides that were being exposed to me. But on a bright side, I learned waaay too much on management skills, thanks to my supervisor! He's a great human being, generally speaking. Kind to me and treated me as his friends and like the rest of the colleagues. I was really honored to be reporting under him. The whole team is great as well, they were kind enough to guide me eventhough we only met virtually (covid... duh).
But corporate life is not for me. I dont really know how to "network". I am not that kind of people, I dont really enjoy myself being surrounded by people talking about work and only work, even when they talk casually there will always be work in it no matter how little it is. Decided not to follow that path, I started looking for different environment, different setting of work. I tried working under operation team, with a different company and... its not for me as well bhahaha i dont know if its the work or just me, I just cant work that way. Its too damn traditional and you have to do everything manually there, its tiring and wears you out honestly so I quit. The decision was too impulsive, I dont have any plans figured out but I just... Quit.
It was the best decision though, I dont want to do something that I hate, my heart is just not there. Most people would think that I'm weak, I dont really care as long as I love what I do and not just doing it for the sake of doing it. It took me some time to adjust to this adulthood life (sobs) and I find myself to do what I love the most, what I have known for years, and what I have imagined myself doing ever since forever. I teach!
I'm a junior lecturer now at a humble private college somewhere in KL. Not regretting anything, I'm enjoying every second of it. Do I plan to further study? maybe some time.. not anytime soon cause that requires a full attention and energy also a lot of ideas and right now my brain is just resetting itself, making rooms so that I have some storage left hehe. I need to make sure the sole purpose of pursuing master, I need to know what exactly I want to do for my thesis, that should be clear in the mind before I decided to do so. Or else, it would have just been a waste of time.
Hence, why I'm taking it slow and enjoy whatever I'm destined to do, right now. I dont want it to really get in my head and build up unnecessary pressure in me. Whew, that is adulting huh. It should be fun but I guess with covid and everything I'm barely enjoying it lolll. But it's not so bad lah, boleh lah, as long as I'm breathing, I'll be okay. Till next time folks, hope youre doing good!
