The reason behind it all

Frankly speaking, no one asks me why I write. But being a lonely person as I am, I like talking to myself so basically I'm the one who asked myself why I write. I write because I want something to look at later,when I'm old. I want to remember, even the moment had passed. And because I have no one to share stories with, I think writing is one of the best way to spill my thoughts without anyone getting annoyed haha.
 We often miss the ol' times and doesn't even give future a chance to prove they're better. I'm also one of those people. I really miss how things used to be. I'm 19 now and got so many problem already I don't know what 20, 21,22 and the list goes on would bring me haiyaa. Is it just me or anyone else get the feeling of being scared to grow up? Suddenly you're alone in your own house, pay your own bills, cook for your own and other things that is so scary to described.
Geez, I'm all about my thoughts, my feelings ugh I don't know what else to say