2019.

Hello, and happy new year! 2019 is a huge deal to me, it means I'm still here and I still need to keep running my errands on which I have no intention to do so because I'm frigging lazy. And it also means I'm getting older, (I'm 21 now) and getting older will only grow my responsibility as a human being towards myself, family and my circle of friends. New year resolutions? nah, I always failed at it so I intend to not have any and just live my boring life as it is... it;s true tho, I think I am the most dull person on earth, I'm not that lets-do-it-now kind of person (I wish I were). my friends does not describe me as "fun" ookay if this go on and on it just shows how pathetic my life is 🤣

I am now in my fourth semester of degree. so far so good... I haven't killed myself yet although the thoughts of it sometimes occurred to me especially when it is week 14 (final week) bhahaha lucky I'm still sane. just pray for me so that I stay sane until the end of degree. 4 semesters down, and another 4 to go. sometimes I think that all these happens too fast and it is scaryy. I still regard myself as a teenager and honestly not ready for work (I still find driving scary but I can drive for only shorter distance) how am I supposed picturing myself as an adult working woman 😭 another life crisis I'm having.. I don't want to grow up :c

I think that's enough ranting for today. I know I did not write much because life gets me on hold I'm so sorry dear blog :c But I'm trying my best to update my life once in a while so that I won't miss out anything when I'm older. perhaps, once a year is okay compared to nothing, right? hahahah until then, goodbye! :-)