Helllooo, I'm writing this in the middle of studying. I needed a break, I can actually hear my brain cracking and aching wanting me to stop inserting new information. Anybody can relate? Oh yeah, I'm few days away from mid semester break! can't wait to put all these tests behind although I am coming home with loads of assignments 😠sooo my title for this post is the pressure. All my friends are achieving something new in their life while I, I am still stuck to where I am now. I have nothing to accomplish for while everyone else is either graduating, married, engaged, or having kids and I am only 21! can you believe it? why do everyone get the best parts? I'm still waiting for the best chapter in my life to happen. All these accomplishments my friends are getting is forcing me to think of things that I should get myself into but I'm a dumb ass I don't know where to start ughh this pressure is killing me! oh, I know, I just turned 21 a few days back, guess that's my first accomplishment, to live and strive for 21 years! I mean, that's a start.... right? 🤣 also, I need to say this guys, this have been weighing me down these past few weeks, I know I shouldn't let myself feel this, it is even a waste of time to think about! I feel lonely more than ever, everyone around me is in love, I feel like I'm gonna grow and die old, I know this is funny to think about, but the more I think about it, the more lonely I feel 🤣 Am I only gonna be a crazy cat lady and a nice aunty that is loved by all the nephews and nieces? :( I mean that's nice, but I want kids of my own, I want someone that I can share everything and talk about anything with, I want a person of my own that makes me laugh every day because I love laughing :( I don't know guys, this is probably my hormones talking 🤣 please make dua's for me, for I can meet someone who loves me equally as I do, who put effort equally as I do, and who is funny of course! (priority) hahaha also, make dua's so that I can successfully graduate on time, landed a good job with positive surrounding, basically everything nice in this life lah hahaha thank you!!
By the way, I wanna say thank you to my roommates for celebrating my birthday the other day, honestly I'm speechless that you guys remembered! and everyone else for the nice wish and prayers, I feel appreciated and may all your wishes to me came true hehe dua is a powerful weapon guys! don't underestimate it, so for every nice wish, I aamiinkan je hehe and you guys aamiinkan juga please! till next time, byebye! :-)
