Am I boring now?

 Hi all, pardon me if this feels too formal of me, I am just so used to this opening ever since I'm working bhahaha, I guess I did tell you guys that I'm a lecturer now somewhere at a private college rightt, so thats how I interact inside a classroom 😆 not like ssupp, obviously i can't huhu. 

Being a young academician I need to act more mature than my age or else the students won't take me seriously, and somehow that has shaped me into a different person now. The way I think, talk and act is just so... boring? Not complaining though, I really enjoy teaching and my work now but its a constant for me so nothing really changes for the past 2 years. 

Am i being ungrateful again? being a human is so hard. the feelings you keep on having... blergh. Okay enough about work yada yada yada 

My 2 bestfriends got married this year and I'm sooooo happy for them. I'm at that age where everyone just keeps getting married hahaha sweet 25 am I right. Felt just like yesterday we graduated high school. So much stupidly fun memories, good old times. Things change, it must. It is an inevitable change, although I am still stuck at the same line. But I'm sure my time will come. What is it you're asking? Could be anything, not just marriage. I'm not hung up on getting married though, cause I don't think I'm ready for that big change of role and responsibilities whew but there's always a first time for everyone kan. 

I don't really write as much as I used to, I don't read that much either but I'm trying to. That is why sometimes I feel like I'm even foolish now cause my mind doesn't wander. That is also why I decided to further study as well. I need new fresh things being thrown at me, desperately lol. 

Okay I think that's quite an elaborate update and I'm yawning (it's 2 am!)  I'm going to stop now, till then! Bye x

I needed this.

 Hi yallsss, ssuppp! OMG, its been a whileeee, I'm back again here, on 2022 (guess that once a year writing thing really does work out huh). Nothing much going on, and I'm actually at my office as I'm typing this. With a lot of work bhahaha. I'm not overwhelmed with work or anything, I mean, I'm occupied, but not overwhelmed. Life's been treating me good these days but I just miss this. Writing. Pouring my heart out. Just... this. Sometimes I wish I could be alone with nothing in my mind and just, write. But if there's nothing going on how could I write, am I righttt

It's Ramadhan now and every muslim are fasting. It's the 9th day and I'm already suffering lolll laparrr hahaha ok ok focus Fatehah. Think about what you want to write. Don't merepek makan kerepek lol there you go again, you merepek again 😖.

I don't even have things to say now I just wanted to feel like myself again and by writing I am totally, whole-me. I needed to get back to what I love most and I just needed this.