Can't believe it's 2021 and I'm 23! Well, I guess updating the blog turned out to be once in a year hahaha last post was on January 2020, and here I am again, January 2021. Who would have thought we would be hit by a pandemic halfway through 2020 and up until now. And it does not seem like it's gonna end anytime soon 😒. I have been spending most of my time being at home, I actually miss going out anytime I want. Malaysia is currently still in movement control order which means everything has its limit, can't go out except with the proposed time by the government. Also, the politics game is going strong here (not into politics, but in times like this I guess I have to). Idk what's the game, but can't just people rule with nothing but pure intention and not for the power tho. The world would be a better place if everyone is on the same page. But again, this world is not fair. Nothing is. I hope this madness ends soon.
I forgot how nice this is. Writing with my laptop, alone, at 3:27 AM. I would have a coffee but just brushed my teeth lol. Missing this vibe and the tranquility. Woah, easy on the big words there, mate 🤣. But for real, I really miss this (questioning myself why I did not do this as a routine). Guess I have been too busy, apart from studying, and watching movies lolll and also house chores, duh 😴. I'm a final year student now hehe just completed my final year project and my viva-voce presentation. Alhamdulillah, it went well. I mean, not the best, but I kinda think I did a good job although I could have done better, and search for a better topic for the project. But this corona makes it hard. Need to change everything and adapt to the new norm. My advice tho, better start searching for the topics even when you are not in your final year. Really think about it to make it interesting and if possible, let it relate to what you plan on to venture for your future career. I did not think that when I first start doing it, all I know is I just want to get it over and done with. Not a good behaviour nor a good thinking. Don't make the same mistake. Tiberr, tips on how to find topic for your final year project hahaha 😆.
Currently looking for an internship placement. Nearly gave up because all industries are struggling at this time, placing them at a difficult position and not being able to hire interns. But luckily I did get an offer at this one company, and I'm looking forward to start my internship journey there. Although I'm a little scared.... okay, lies, VERY scared. I don't know what to expect, I'm afraid I'm not gonna be good at what I learn. What if I get scold for being so dumb? 😭 What if I can't apply my knowledge with hands-on cause I'm bad at it? aaaa I am overwhelmed just thinking about it. It's my first time, and it feel so 'adult-y' to me hshhshha is that even a word? aaaa so scared being an adult. Is this how grown-ups should feel in the first place? How do I overcome the fear? I have been feeling like I am not ready and I am envious of my friends who are already 'there'. I don't think I'm there yet T.T. I just have to suck it up and face it. What choice do I have?
Okay, I think that's it. Sure, there's A LOT that has been happening in my life within the time span of 1 year but I guess this is is sufficient because it's too long already hahaha I'll try to make another entry on the other things (I'LL TRY KAYS) but for the time being, this is enough to wrap it up. Till next time, bye-bye! 🌝
